Have you wondered if you’re who you’re or if you’re riding yourself as who you were portrayed?

Riley, the name was the first reason that made me watch the part 1 of Inside out. The name of the fancy character that came as the protagonist of the initial game of “The Sims”. We ought to complete her life goals to open a portal of the characters and City that you can create for yourself. Fantasies are blindly the only fun and are the only lives for many like me. The movie brought much clarity to many of my questions back then when I ought to make some important decisions. I would like to call these emotions, the Brownie emotions- (Maybe Not much like the ‘Brownie points’).: The instant and impulse emotions riding you to decisions that are much needed ones during those moments.

Back when I saw the first part, i knew there was something more. I was yet to meet a compatible therapist for whatever I was going through. And I strongly believed Pixar will make part 2. (And now I really hope they don’t make part 3 and commercialize; it is better to leave it to the viewers to educate themselves on their emotions at this juncture) So I was damn thrilled and was so eager since the first look of part 2 started. Brownie emotions sprouted then: The ones you long for… to validate your sanity and insanity, most importantly to make you feel you’re not alone.

As a matter of fact, I barely controlled myself to bawl out after watching Inside Out 2 just like many viewers. I am restarting this blog as just an impulsive scribble after the movie as I nibble the not-so-great-Brownie and as I fight my anxiety to embrace the other emotions back in the mind. Hence the title! The after effect of a Brownie.. mmhmm.. not so pleasant..;, when you lose the fun, when you crave something more, when something deep down has been dug away, to your worst if you have harmonal imbalance, the after effects of uncontrollable tears for hours.

Am I who I am at all at any time! Thanks to the movie, embracing all parts of you is the key to making use of brownie emotions for betterment.

The little victories: on the way, a child turning to smile with a deep eye contact; the ‘aha’ moment of understanding something you thought you will never comprehend; implicit praises from an unexpected acquaintance; all of these would have brought you these brownie emotions. Ofcourse the after effect might include longing, fear, trust issues. However we tend to let go of these brownie emotions faster than the rest of the after effect, just like our body reflects to the sugar.

The choice is which pockets would you choose to hold onto: the initial pocket of emotions or the after effect of the emotions that is cooked up by your mind and body. The healthy choice comes with exercising your mind and body at your own pace, and of course with the right people to help you around.